Give Me A Fucking Reason

I have so many more days until I start school. I have  no idea what the hell is going on with my mind. I cant think strait. I cant play music. I can't write. I can't talk to girls without thinking I'm a fucking creep. I don't fucking get it. I don't get stupidity. I can't get why people think of me as someone who is full of themselves. I never think I am any better than a fucking crack whore. I don't think of homeless people as and worse than I am. I think I have mental issues just like the fucking rest of this country. This goddamn weird guy that people think I am makes no sense to me. And I don't understand why. I would really wish that someone would just tell me what my fucking problem is so I could fucking fix it already. I really want to be a fucking normal person. I don't want fucking problems. I don't think I'm better than these people who talk about me behind my back. I try and point out my flaws. Yet for some idiotic asshole reason, there are these people who just say apparently the most fucked up shit about me. There are fucking snobs who refuse to talk to me, when I have never done any of them any fucking harm, or was mean, or fucking rude once to any of these people. I don't understand why people label me as a creep. That's one thing that really fucking bothers me. I get called a fucking creep. I DON'T DO FUCKING ANYTHING TO FUCKING DESERVE THIS! Please someone tell me what the hell to think about this. I mean really. I know that I could let this go, or just talk to the people directly. But they're fucking fake people I used to know, and they're fucking up my good name and talking shit on me with no basis because they fucking think they're better than me, cause they fucking over exaggerate a single fucking text message, and are fucking dishonest about it my fucking face. It's fucking immature. It's retarded. I'm fucking sick of illogical bastards that act like they're hot shit. Or fucking retards that get more attention, than someone who is somewhat intelligent, tries to be humble and is trying to make something of themselves.